Sometimes I still think about her... usually after Cody comes over and we've talked about her.
It's been almost a year since I kicked her out of my life--I didn't mean to kick her out of my life, I just couldn't handle her living with me with the lifestyle she was living, so the intent was just to kick her out of the house.
She was my best friend for over 4 years. That last year was the toughest. I still don't know what really went wrong. But I can feel that our paths will never cross again, and even if they do, there would be such resentment towards me on her part. I forgave her, but I doubt she will ever forgive me.
I have had 2 lovers since then, but neither one lasted, and now it seems that neither one meant anything either.
I don't want this to be the pattern for the rest of my life.
I still seem to befriend girls who are in trouble, ones that don't feel that they belong to society, outcasts, abused, and street hardened.
Why is this?